It hit me. Finally. Why I've been afraid to mother this entire time. Why I have been afraid to love or care or be responsible for something- from conception, to birth and beyond. The obvious
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Healing
The alcoholic who owns a bar
Yes, I am an alcoholic. And yes, I own a bar.Some of my friends recently have asked how I manage, what it's like, what it was like... So I thought I would write and address any lingering
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Screw the pursuit of happiness
It's as if a seed of searching for happiness is planted in us at a young age.
"Do what makes you happy."
"As long as she/he makes you happy."
"Don't worry, BE
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Sisterhood
I envy women who have sisters. I really do. There's something about a woman who has one. You can just tell.
They are more confident. They need less. They understand the female breed better
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Help!
As a care taker by nature, it's often hard for me to ask for or receive help. It triggers feelings of incompetence, unworthiness, and guilt.
I've always found pride in doing things for
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Heart Gifts
I'm learning to love myself more, by sharing myself with you. That's the beauty in the ashes, the silencing of the shame. It happens amidst the share, not in spite of it.
One area I have always
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Doomsday o’clock
As a new mom last year, I couldn't get over the amount of times people would say, "oh just you wait." It was as if I should brace for impact, expect for it to get worse (if possible?), and
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Let’s Talk Heroin.
HEROIN. It can be such a scary word. When I first heard about it, I assumed it was used by homeless dead beats living under bridges. It just goes to show how some personal life experiences and
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