We want to love others. We want to help, we want to serve, we want to give away hope + forgiveness + meaning + value + worth.
But through our efforts we become exhausted. We grow bitter and resentful when others won’t take our advice, when they won’t make changes or do the work. We wonder why they don’t see our sacrifice? Am I not enough?
We people please, we perfect our words + our dress + our worlds the best we can, we perform to make others happy even though beneath it’s simply out of fear. We know this, but we deny it, because to face it would be too painful, we think.
So we continue to do what we know. What we have been taught… Hollywood’s version of love. To work. To sacrifice. To try harder. Our fear of losing others is greater than the fear of losing ourselves, for now.
We grow weary, angry + tired. We distance ourselves, we isolate. We then loop back, it’s comfortable here. We beg, plead, we grow more anxious, more confused. Blame. Control. The battle. It’s what we know.
All we want to do here is love + we don’t know why it’s not happening, not working. We think it’s our fault. We think we are broken. But it’s the inner wiring that’s tangled.
We forget that we aren’t the source of love + empathy + acceptance + healing + saving. We are simply the vessel for it. We are a conduit that must remember that in order for love to flow, we must be willing to keep ourselves clear. To keep the wires untangled.
This takes sacrificing our ego, our desire to control + manipulate, our fears that we aren’t enough. We must trust that the same source that is responsible for flooding others with the peace + love + acceptance, is the same that exists within + through us.
We don’t have to work to earn what is already ours. We don’t have to create more of ourselves or manufacture love or healing to give away to people. We must remember our energy is limited + must be acknowledged and guarded. This is self discipline/practice/awareness as the compulsion to be the source is ever present + nagging.
To give to others is to stay clear.
Untangled = boundaries.
This is how love flows through.