Maybe you were little + felt obligated to make your parents happy. Maybe you had an ill sibling + you putting yourself first was never an option. Maybe you felt it was your role early on to place the needs of everyone else above you, and now you have no idea how to function any other way. Maybe you feared loss of relationship, and worked tirelessly to please others. But doing so, you lost yourself. Now you’re stuck, or so you believe, rescuing, advising, fixing, saving… and the cycle of abandonment continues. I see you.
I never knew I was allowed to care for myself. But my body made that choice for me. After years of migraines, shingles outbreaks, insomnia, back pain + panic attacks, it got to the point where the drugs/alcohol to numb wouldn’t cut it. I had to begin diving deep, setting boundaries, healing + honoring myself. It was scary, messy, and uncertain… but not as scary as losing my way everyday. Finally, I was putting my feet on solid ground. My life didn’t revolve around others. I could breathe again. I found my way back to myself. Today I am free. I no longer play that role… I no longer abandon me. I share my story + my work here, to help you find yourself again too. I want you to know it’s possible.
When did you learn to abandon yourself? And how are you continuing to abandon yourself now?