I use to love the chase. The more they were unavailable, unstable, chaotic, dismissive, emotionally distant, unpredictable— the better. When they couldn’t fulfill me, I thought I was to blame. So I tried harder.
Healing has shed light on my own part in this cycle. I was returning to people + places that couldn’t give me what I needed, because I couldn’t give me what I needed first.
I now know that I am enough. I have learned to love myself, accept my flaws, honor my pace, and that is reflected in my closest relationships. I no longer fear or sabotage the safe, predictable, available, emotionally mature. I am able to give it + receive it… without question. No strings attached, playing games, confusion or anxiety.
I no longer work for what has always been mine. I now know where to find what I’ve always searched for — it comes from within. This is the work. A return to divine self, to a well of love that never runs dry. 🙏🏼🤍