The more I do this work to return to my true self, the more I am reintroduced to who I really am and what I need.
I’m able to better understand why I am here, what gifts I offer, and the astounding love my Creator has for me. For once (and finally), I can see the beauty of it all.
For many years I struggled with battles of MANY kinds. I believed that if I stopped popping pills or drinking alcohol, that I would be “fixed.”
However I didn’t realize that I had many other battles to face: my addiction to controlling others, drama, living in chaos, codependency, people pleasing, worry, sex, food, money.
I had a warped sense of reality that I thought I could manipulate in order to manufacture a sense of safety in my mind, body and soul. Addictions of any kind was a release for me + a lie I believed for many years. It never helped relieve the anxiety or confusion or pain, it perpetuated it.
It wasn’t until I set everything down; the games, the substances, the dabbling in others’ lives, the lack of boundaries, the sabotage, the self harm + denying myself, did I finally feel a sense of freedom. I began to heal.
It is always an inside job, a continuous return to self.
Can you relate?
