What I now know is I only needed to keep going. I didn’t have to have it all figured out. I just needed to hear that whisper, and follow what it said. This is how trust gains its momentum. This was my faith at work.
I look back and see that I spent years challenging my inner knowing, and this was exhausting and confusing. I decided to stop it. I realized if a place or a person couldn’t hold this part of me, then I had to lovingly detach. It was either them, or me, and I wasn’t going to abandon myself anymore.
I don’t have to contort or edit or manipulate myself to fit or be accepted in the places that support my growth and healing. I don’t have to challenge who I am or what I need or the vision I have for my life–
I had it all wrong.
Instead I had to start challenging the culture that asked me to challenge and question myself. I was never broken, the system was. So I set myself free.