Yesterday was one of those days where sharing this work publicly challenged me to the core. I had people messaging me hurtful comments, announcing they were unfollowing me, offended + triggered by what I had wrote on God being my source of love + asking me to just “stick to the science + research.”
Thankfully I’ve been doing my own inner work for a while. But I’d be lying if I told you that it still doesn’t impact me on some level. To be honest, I never want it to not impact me. I never want to grow a skin so thick that I don’t feel the power of this space, this community + those reading these words. To not feel would contradict the very path I have strived to pave for myself; one of being present + living authentically. I have spent too many years numb, blind + asleep to ever want to return to that again.
It’s not always easy, even today, to not be liked by everyone. But what matters more than anything, is that I like me. I choose to no longer abandon myself for the comfort of others, in real life, and here.
Part of sharing here comes with great understanding that I will be misunderstood often, and that’s okay. My inner child gets scared + confused; she asks me to run, hide, smile, oblige. But we can’t. We won’t. We have come too far. I remind us that we are safe. That we can do hard things. So we breathe. We expand. We reclaim our space, our voice, our purpose.
I have been gifted to create + connect here with you. I do not take that lightly. I hold room for those with opposing views, as I know what it feels like to live unheard, unseen, unbelieved. My efforts are not to convince you to follow my path, my efforts are to deal hope + inspire healing, however that may look for you.
I care about each of you. You have helped me grow + learn + become someone more whole than I was just a few years ago when I started this page. I hold close the encouragements I have received. They push me to continue showing up here, fully + thin skinned. Thank you.
Sending love + encouragement, from this South Florida mama, who continues to chase four babies + a PhD. Thankful to be saved by boundaries, Jesus and dry shampoo again today. //🤍🙏🏼
