I got vulnerable today in my Instagram stories sharing how I was struggling a bit over the weekend with some toxic thoughts. I think the combo:::lack of sleep, feeling achy + run down plus my cycle returning had me at my own wits end. 😖
Instead of letting this junk sit inside— I broke down to a friend. This wasn’t just ANY friend. This was a safe friend. Someone who has earned a spot at my table. Someone who has built up trust. Someone who reminds me I’m not alone, and helps me laugh too.
I spent a long time trying to FIX the way others responded to my pain. What I have since learned is that I had to FIX who I shared my pain with. I could no longer phone or text or open up to those who responded in ways that added to my hurt. Returning to this time + time again was not their fault, it was mine.
Everyone carries unsafe qualities. We are human + flawed. However who I open up to + when I do so is MY responsibility. To share parts of myself ((especially the aching parts)) with those who can’t hold space, be tender + vulnerable back is no longer what I’m about. The cycle of self betrayal ends. I deserve quality relationships + so do you.
