I’ve evolved into a highly sensitive empath. I don’t believe we are born this way. I believe our environment + those early relationships in childhood groom this skill. For me, there was a lot of alcohol + conflict in my home. I learned very quickly the moods, demeanors + behaviors of others. It is what helped me feel safe. It’s how I knew when to speak up or when to go into my room to play alone.
As a mother today, it is a challenging (gift?) to have. Some moments, I want to push my children’s big feelings away; but that takes energy. Other moments, I want to absorb their feelings, making them mine; but that too, takes energy. So most nights, if I’m not careful, I can go to bed completely + utterly exhausted, because I have spent my entire day pushing + pulling, instead of accepting and letting them and their feelings just be. Four children, one mama. Finding my center is crucial.
I believe peace is found here, in this space of acceptance. It takes awareness + practice to find it each day. But that’s what I want. I don’t want to run or avoid and I don’t want to absorb and be consumed until I’m gone. #consciousparenting